Pursuit Of Happiness...

Thomas Jefferson wrote in the Declaration of Independence,

“We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that
they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among
these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.”

Am I am not entitled to being happy??. Good heavens, Maybe I do not deserve to be happy, but I know i can, and should pursue the same even if to no ends. This does not mean that because I am pursuing happiness I can’t be happy at the same time...Maybe iam happy in the pursuit or maybe the moist touch of that miracles makes me lust for more...Sometimes it's a curse and sumtimes it's a blessing but neverthless it's a pursuit everlasting and in parts unattainable .

So why must we always be HAPPY? When I say HAPPY I mean forced smile HAPPY, mega HAPPY, frappacappaccino HAPPY, long nights with a bottomless keg and broken promises HAPPY, ginormous diamond ring HAPPY, red sports car HAPPY, not married HAPPY, stiletto sandals HAPPY, lonely, aching, empty, searching, wounded heart but by gosh HAPPY. …HAPPY?
…is this really what we want? If it is, yeah, I do see why we wouldn’t be happy in our pursuit. Why pursue at all? If we were to pursue, we might actually catch a glimpse of what our "HAPPY" is made of. Sometime ago i came across this quote and it nearly broke my heart…and summed up our sad little world:
"It's going to come true like you knew it would, but it's not going to feel like you thought it would"
-Rosie O'Donnell
…so I am happy in my pursuit, because for me the pursuit is about completing my life.I have realized that somewhere we are all incomplete,we live our whole lives like that.Incomplete in love,incomplete in success even incomplete in our failures. Somewhere all i long for is completion,somewhere all i lust for is fullfilment. Maybe it's our destinies to find our elixer just as it's our destiny to reach our waterloo. I may never find what iam looking for but i know only a touch of that happiness will complete me for ever.

Someone ones told me"People learn early in their lives what is their reason for being",fortunately or unfortunately i have still not learnt that but the more i learn i realize this is the reason...maybe this is all my reasons.

Going Home!!!

To dance
like nobody's watching; to
love like you've never been hurt;

to sing like nobody's listening; to live like
it's heaven on
earth.....

This has been really long due...I have to admit i was lost and it's not easy to find your way back home. Iam still not home but there are times i feel i am getting there.

"Hope is a good thing, its the best of things and no good thing ends bad"

- Morgan Freeman (Shawsank Redemption)

Maybe all this time i was just trying to survive on hope and a little smoke.but sooner or later one realizes that...On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero. The things you own end up owning you.The people you know end up disowning you.The places you go end up going away from you...It's strange when you realize after travelling so long and so alone that all you ever wanted to reach was HOME. There was a time very long ago when i knew what home was,where it was and how did one get back home but now after coming so far and learning so much i have lost what i once knew i had.The biggest Irony of life is that even when u know u want to go back u cannot go back,there are no reverse gears in this vehicle.When u step aside and think back u realize that all of us share a common destiny of getting to ur perceived goals in life or die trying ...