The ideosynacricies of a stupid Mind...

Sometimes i pity my stupidity and then i repeat them again and again.I go around thinking thn i control my world...I AM A GIANT but actually neither do i hv the control nor i am a GIANT...Maybe its the self Image iam in more love with rather than the truth.I need to correct my mistakes,learn from them and try not to repeat them later.

The Stupidity we do......

I seldom realize my stupidities in life.....Its just that when i do realize what is it that i do,I feel so embarased and disgusted.Why do i always end up like this??? Why do i always do the same mistakes again and again......I may have the questions bt the answers are hard to comprehend.In our trying to build relationships we actually end up killing ourselves,how can i teach sumone how to live life??? We can never teach a person anything ,they do things on there own silly convenience. People have there conveniences and Priorities,they see life not through the eyes of a human but through the prism of convenience.I never understand why do people malign the names of other people??? What fun do they get by making fun of others??? Why do they use people to make them dependent upon oneself ???
Someday i want to realize why people break relations just because they get irritated by others.I never understood why someone would break a relation to make another one....I also want to understand why do people let others slave them and make them there pets....People make relationships,break relationships,make new relationship.break old relationships.depend upon relationships,cry over relationships,get enslaved by relationship,Are used by relationships......And then they again make Relationships.The irony of life is relationships,we never learn to live without them and we do learn with them.....
Sometimes i wonder if people are really the way they are or are they what they can never show.People cheat, caress , cry, shout and laugh but in the end they only do wht hurts u the most...When u let someone enter ur heart u not only allow him a space in ur heart but u also give him the power to hurt u where it hurts the most...
Why do we allow people a space in our heart...???/
Who gives thm the power to hurt....???/
Who gives them a right to fool around us.....???/

I never was able to understand Myself,bt nw i guess i cant even make others understand myself...Maybe its the others who dont understand themselves leave alone understand me. Someday i may foget the hurt but i know i will never be able to forgive the pain that the hurt caused deep inside...Imay never remain the same but i will always wonder are people any happier or any more satisfied then iam today...